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Can’t help but falling emo…

It’s quite upsetting that we have completed our first 2.5yrs of our long course and now some of us, well more than half of us, are expelled to the overseas. Don’t worry, Overseas Restaurant branches won’t be full. I couldn’t help but to think bout this. Well, i kinda revived but i read someone’s blog just now bout emo-ing. So lemme tell u wat went through my mind.

First, it’s da word itself. Forgive my lameness, but i just can’t help it. Is ‘emo-ing’ a word? Well, let’s just assume that the word ‘emo’ means ‘emotion’ which makes it ‘emotioning’. Since my english isn’t that good, I guess it’s just a purely advanced english.

Then comes in the serious stuff. (I’ll do everything in chronological order). I remembered Myanmar who just disappeared without me attending the ‘sending off’ ceremony at this building called the airport. Although I didn’t get to know her much earlier during the 2.5 years, but I remembered places that we’d go to and how we’d help each other with different stuff. Knowing that we became closer for many months and suddenly she just disappeared..just like that. Man, i feel bad.

Next is my ex-wife, who left not long ago. I had to fight to attend the sending off part. Even fetched a number of people enthusiastically for her! Even forced my son, although he said, “but I don’t want to…” which later he refuses to continue even after I ask him to. Sadly enough, I kinda had a voice problem during that day and others claimed the reason was too much crying the day before. (owh, those devil-minded people!) Gladly, though, she’s fine now staying with her auntie.

Up comes next is the pink laoban! Why pink laoban? Well, this fella wore pink and wore a white shirt (thought it’s a jacket or something) around her shoulders, which make her look like laoban! Nyahahaha. I knew she’d cry because she said so. So I decided to hold everything back, smile and make her laugh a bit before she went through the immigration. God knows how i really felt that day.

Well, so far, these things came to my mind when i read that blog just now. I know more will have to leave sooner or later. But, I sure hope we’re all prepared for this.

Exam’s over…

It feels like yesterday when we claim that exam was coming.  We gathered in the library till we fibrose ourselves into library furnitures 24-7 for our exams. When holidays come and our habitat were closed down,  our gatherings moved to McD. Came early morning and studied till afternoon when suddenly there were rapid contractions of our SCM muscle giving special indications for special activity involving the attack of ‘OUR LAN’ (PS. missing ‘D’ is deliberate). It feels like yesterday.

It feels like yesterday when we entered the exam hall and experienced terror as our lecturers attacked us with bombs, nuclear warheads, jets, infantries and whatnot. MCQ, MEQ, OSPE and OSCE they are called. Reinforcements from the clinical schools came to assist them and gave further destruction of up to 100Mt. Yes, it sounds bad but hey, we survived! And yes, it feels as if it was yesterday.

Everything felt like yesterday…

And today, our results came out and most of our souls are released from continuous torture as the question repeats throughout our mind, “Pass or fail?”. Happy faces shown here and there. Yes, everything was nice till suddenly I realised that one of my comrade in battle is leaving. To think that, a person whom you fought with alongside for years is leaving. I never knew it would be this upsetting. And now, I kinda, wish everything would be back again like it was..yesterday.

Time…

Time. Time is a funny thing. It is. Why? Well, time goes at a varying speed though we know they are at a constant speed. Constant speed? Yes, 1min/min (laaammmeeee). Anyways, what i’m trying to say is that, people admit that time is very fast, so fast that you can’t feel as it goes, but complained that it’s slow, though sometimes indirectly. Still don’t get what I mean? Lemme give you an example.

Years and months have passed since we first started our Medical course down in our university and this happened during our study break for our final exam before going to our clinical years in semester 5. Dr. CCB claimed that, “so fast a, it feels like yesterday wen say “in three months time we’ll have our final exam!” and now we’re almost there!”, but sometime later, he said, “aih, so sien la! Why can’t we have the exam now!”.  Yes, as shown, he meant time is fast but complained that time is slow although time is going at a constant speed 1min/min (laammmeeee).

Man, see how funny our claims are?!?! We are human after all.